| i've started posting again! i really really really promise that i'll try not to neglect this site.. which i think is my 6th one..
however.
i do intend on keeping this one.. unlike the rest. hees.
today's a holiday.. i would've been enjoying the glorious sun at sentosa right now...urrrrggggnnnhhhh!.. if not for two certain someones who insisted i stay at home and study. its not as if i haven't been studying.. and i already promised that i wont be back late..
and the weather is super good today...
i feel that they don't understand me and i don't really feel like explaining my every thought and action to them. and thats very very sad... maybe i'm just going through another phase in life?
this sucks to the core!!! its so sickening. first the bag issue..then this huge fight last night which left me crying in my room and wishing i had someone.. they are RESTRICTING MY FREEDOM! and to my surprise, i actually found myself thinking of who i should go to stay with if i run awayyyyyy from home.
...which i really don't think i'd every do that.. cus i'm spoilt and too dependent. and i don't think i'd ever have the guts to leave. but then again, maybe one day i'd be pushed over the edge and i'll just escape! ah hah..
leave your name and address if you have room space for me!
...just in case i do run away...
hurhurrr.
i'm giving my brother tuition. $2.50/hr... which means i'll have to give him 320 hours worth of tuition to save up for this :
 canon digital ixus 800 IS
i won't ask dad to buy it for me... because i wanna be independent and i want to stop relying on people for things.
AND I REALISED THAT I'M ALWAYS WANTING SOMETHING.
want want want want want WANT.
dad: "so what do you want this time??"
hahaHa.. maybe its just me..but isn't it something like.. in human nature to never be contented...? hmm...
sometimes you never get what you want.
even though you give your all for that person.. willing to sacrifice everything.. just to be close to that person. bringing yourself to become some slut and bitch.. go through all means to try to hold on with every fibre and determination in you. but ultimately losing that person.. watching the wind blow out that tiny flicker left from that once-burning candle. and all you can do is just watch as that person drifts away. but then again, gotta know when to let go for good. in the end, everything will be better.. if its meant to be, it'll find its way back. i'm letting go once and for all. who know what'll happen in the future...?
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
so true.
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